Wednesday, July 22, 2015


Time just keeps blowing by and I then realize that I write the most frequently on our blog when the most stuff is going on in our life. 
We have felt EXTREMELY blessed the past while. My children are happy, and we are just enjoying our life with our little family. 
I love reading our blog and the letters I write to our children. I love seeing how they have changed and I love being reminded of who they are and how they have grown. 
Today we went to the splash pad in alpine. I try and do something everyday with my boys. From going to the library, park, thanksgiving point museums, riding bikes infront of the house or playing on the swing set in the back yard. Today was the splash pad. Arland began with telling me he was starving and wanted lunch, so we opened our sack lunch and ate on a blanket under a tree. As we were sitting there I could see his little eyes watching the splash pad and the water shooting all over the place. He was a little intimidated. Porter wanted NOTHING to do with it. Eventually arland stood up and said "mom, I think I can do this now!" He started running towards the pad when he turned around and looked at Porter and said "Porter I will hold your hand so you are scared." ..... My mom heart burst. I love this family of mine! I watched them hold hands walking into the splash pad avoiding the water spraying all over them. They truly are amazing little people and I am so grateful to be their mother. 

We have seen miracles with you! You are so amazing to me and the bright spirit you have. When you started having seizures I didn't know if I would ever see "you" again. Between the seizures and your medicine I felt like I had lost you. Many people had said to me that they didn't notice a change... They just thought the temper tantrums and fits were a "normal you" kind of thing. I knew they weren't and I had felt like I would never see the real you again. When we started to wean you off of your medication I started to see glimpses of "you" coming back. You became more calm, relaxed and happy. I missed that in you. By nature you have always been very empathetic. You feel other peoples emotions and you are gentle and loving towards everyone. I started to see all of that again. 
Today I have my arland boy back. You are a shining light in our family arland. I learn from you everyday. You are the best big brother and you love to play with anyone. You are a lover of all things pirate, paw patrol, chocolate dipped strawberries, and Cheetos. You love to play memory cards, and hide and seek. I love all of the things I am seeing in you now arland. Love mommy 

My little instagator... You love to tease, chase, hide, and wrestle. You love your brother and playing with him and his friends. Porter you are so loving and snugglie. You love to come in my room in the morning and cuddle in moms bed with arland and watch cartoons. You love to be in the center of it all, and we want arland to just give you the most attention of all. Porter you are such a sweet little friend. You love to make people happy. I love everything you are Porter boy. Love mommy