Saturday, December 28, 2013


I can't believe that you are 8 almost 9 months! Where has time gone...seriously! I hold on to the fact that you are really like 6 months so that means that I get an "extra" 3 months with you being my baby! Christmas has come and gone and now we are all sick in our house, you especially, I took you to the doctor and they said that you may have RSV. I am hoping and praying not, I am trying everything in my power to keep you safe and taken care of. That means humidifier, ibuprofen, Tylenol, some doterra oils and LOTS of lovin! It's hardest when you sleep, you and I were up till 3 am last night and then you threw up everywhere. I just hope you feel better soon. You are so happy though through it all. You started sitting up by your self! CRAZY! And you are such a jibber jabber! You started some solid foods (rice cereal) but you LOVE your bottle. You are also the best sleeper still too! At night Arland says his prayers that Porters lungs will stay strong, feel better porter bug. We love you so much! 

Bundle of energy! That explains you right now! You love to wrestle and play chasing games. Last night daddy got home and you wrestled him in the bed for a couple hours! You kept saying "daddy get me!" And "daddy I'm fine" haha we were laughin forever about you and how much you have changed. It seams not that long ago that we were getting to know each other again, you wouldn't speak or eat. I knew you felt confused and alone. But now you love to play and talk and explore. You are my bundle of energy! Love you smart boy! 

Wednesday, December 25, 2013


As I sit here on this Christmas Day while Arland is playing with his new toy kitchen I want to document our memories together. This was our first Christmas with Porter and it was so wonderful and magical for our family. Arland has been talking about Santa since thanksgiving and our Christmas did not disappoint. Heath and I wanted to do everything possible to make this Christmas extra special, we had a family activity every day, some bigger then others. We went to see Santa and to a movie, played in the snow, made ginger bread houses. We did everything! This morning arland woke up and grandma and pa Neubert came over to see Arland come out of his room to see what Santa brought him. There was a giant teepee in our living room! He ran right for the teepee and played hiding, he got a flashlight and lots of books, and loved helping Porter open presents. Then we went to grandma and grandpa Pulhams where we celebrated Christmas in their new house! We chatted, played and had a giant Christmas breakfast! Arland LOVES his cousins so it was just fun to be together with all of our family! Then we went to grandma and pa Neuberts where we talked to auntie umm ( sister neubert)! She is just so happy serving a mission for the LDS church. She really is the happiest she has ever been and loves what she is doing. It was so hard to say goodbye we miss her so much but are so proud of her! We then opened presents! I seriously cannot express how tallented my mother is! She gave me shadow boxes of my boys blessing outfits! I started bawling! Heath got new lights for the outside of our house! Arland got a play kitchen, it was a WONDERFUL Christmas! Now I am sitting in the basement watching Disney movies with my Arland while me sweet baby Porter and the rest of my family sleep. So much to be thankful for this year, my children are healthy happy, and growing! Heath is such a hard worker and so supportive. My little family has been through so much this year and I couldn't be more thankful for the guardian angels I have in my life. The ones living and the ones on the other side. I truly know that with out a doubt Heavenly Father has watched over my family and guided me to amazing people to take care of my Porter being born and Arland while I was away. It was such an amazing and beautiful 2013, I will always remember those that came into my life this year, and those we love that left us this year. Merry Christmas! 

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Holiday activities

We have seriously been so busy this week and LOVED it! We started off by taking the heber creeper train on Monday and it was a blast!
The West family came with us and we listened to Christmas music and had hot chocolate and cookies on the train.
Then at some point my dad and mike found a microphone and well the started singing and had the people up in the isle of the train dancing. Enough said.
Arland LOVED it and was dancing the entire time with his pal Zoe. 
Then last night we made ginger bread houses and might I say, the most glamorous gingerbread houses. We had lots if laughs and competing! 
Arland loved to put the roof together with us and Zoe made a deer for the front of our house too. 
We LOVE those girls! Any hoo we have just loved these holidays and can't wait for arland to see what the big guy in red brings him for christmas. He runs around the house on a regular basis saying " I LOVE PRESENTS, I LOVE PRESENTS!" 

Friday, December 6, 2013

A birthday

Every year Heath asks me what I would like for my birthday and every year I say the same thing.... A vacation! I was always the child that dreamed about waking up christmas morning and my parents telling me that we were going somewhere amazing for the holiday. Alas that never happend. I would much rather go on an adventure than do gifts. So that is what Heath gave me! Porter and Arland stayed with my dad and mom while Heath and I headed to Park City for a mini-vaca! I love that I was able to have Heath all to my self for my birthday. Sometimes we just get so wrapped up in life that we forget to take time to enjoy each other so this was the best birthday gift ever! He took me out to dinner, and then it was an entire day of shopping! After that we went back to the hotel and watched "The Sound of Music" with Carrie Underwood. I loved it, Heath tolerated it for me. Haha All in all it was perfect! I did miss my little misters though.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

These two...

I feel like the luckiest woman in the world to be the mother to these two. Today we awoke to a blizzard outside our house. Arland knows that Santa or "ho ho ho" is coming to our house to bring presents! He talks about Santa living at the North Pole with elves and riding the Polar Express! He believes and that is so magical in our house. So this morning when it snowed we had to put snow pants on and shoes an bundle up to play out side. We love this time of year, playing christmas music reading stories and snuggling in mom and dads bed to watch a christmas movie. I am so lucky to call these two mine! 

Tuesday, November 19, 2013


We said goodbye to this lady. (Saddest day ever for me, BEST day ever for her!) She didn't shed one tear she was just SO excited!

You are getting so big! I cant believe how fast you are changing and the things you can do and say now. You are seriously such a happy guy! You love everyone, especially baby Porter. I love that you like to help mommy around the house. You give Porter his binky or a blanky and you just love to help. You are loving planes right now and you love to play with Paze. You are SUCH a picky eater! I never thought I would have a picky eater because I was never that way but you are seriously so picky, which doesn't help your "weight" issue. I guess you have your daddy's genes. I love you buddy you brighten my day and make me laugh All The TIME! Love, Momma

My love bug you are my little miracle everyday. I love this stage of your life right now. You smile CONSTANTLY! You are always happy and just glad to be apart of the crowd. I think that you are teething right now because you could chew off my finger and your binky. Today mommy was reminded of everything that we went through together. Not that I don't think about it all the time. Today I was at Timpanogos Hospital doing some work and I pulled into the parking lot where they put mommy on the helicopter to go up to the U of U. I parked right in front and stared at it for a second. Its the first time I have been there since that day. I remember being put on that helicopter and the flight nurse that was talking to me, trying to keep me calm. I remember hearing her talk to the pilot, I kept my eyes closed because I was so scared, but I could hear everything. I remember thinking about you and praying that you Porter Boy would stay with me and that Heavenly Father wouldn't leave us. I remember talking to you in my head as they loaded me onto the helicopter. I had all of those feelings rush back to me, and I started shaking. It was such a magnificently spiritual experience that I cherish every day. I remember those people that day, their voices. I remember you, I loved you so much already. Thank you for sharing that with me Porter. Thank you for choosing me to do that for you. Love, Mommy 

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

My Boys


As I sit here typing I can hear your little cry as you lay in your bed in “time out.” You are such a sweet little boy but you sure do know how to make a woman crazy! You are just so tired and I know that you have watched WAY to much tv today! So it is now noon and I am ready for you to go down for a nap before I make you play outside the rest of the day with Pazely and on the swing set. You are so funny right now Arland because I put your nose in the corner first and you turned around and looked at me as if to say “watch I am NOT going to put my nose in the corner” then you turn around and dump everything out of the diaper bag. I grabbed your hand and made you pick up every little thing and put it back. Then you fell to the floor and screamed. Why I have never documented one of your temper tantrums I DO NOT KNOW! Even though you have these tantrums every now and then I love when we become friends again. You always come up to me with tears in your eyes after you have come back to reality and say “sorry mamma” and then I get the best hugs and kisses after that. After everything is done we forgive and forget. I always hope as your momma that you learned something but lets be honest your two year old brain forgives and forgets as fast as a bolt as lightening. I love that about you.
You are doing so good at potty training! Nights are a little rough but you are a champ! You came to the store the other day with momma and you had your eyes set on a thing of airplane toys. I told you we couldn’t get them and you had a meltdown. You talked about the airplane the rest of the week and one day daddy came home and you asked him if you could go get the “pane?” He said that you had done such a good job going potty that he would buy you the “panes.” We went to the store late at night and daddy let you choose which plane you wanted. You knew exactly which one you wanted and you carried it through the entire store. You were so happy to get your new “pane” and you told everyone about your new toy. Little moments like that are what we love most with you. I love to see the excitement on your little face. That is a memory I will have forever.
Thanks for being my little buddy Arland. I truly love you more than you could ever know. Love momma


Your smile is the best way to start my day. I wake up everymorning to the sound of your little voice making sweet chattering noises. I look over the crib to pick you up and you give me the biggest smile. I have never met a happier baby. You are ALWAYS happy and excited to have anyone hold you or play with you. You started rolling over last month and you love to sit in your bumbo chair! I cant believe how big you are getting! You love your toys, for your 6 month mark Arland and mommy went to the store and got you a little present. Arland picked it out and he loves to help you play with it.
You love your brother Arland, you love to laugh at him. I cant tell if you are teathing, but you LOVE to put your hands in your mouth...all at once. Which means we get a lot of gagging and throwing up because you just want your whole fist in your mouth. You love walks and being outside, so does Arland. The walks put you right to sleep. I love everything about you right now Porter, I love the way that you smile right into my soul, I love the way you sleep and make little noises while you are sleeping. I love the way you love your daddy. I love seeing you and Arland and your daddy all snuggled into mom and dads bed reading books and watching movies. You are my little and I will always love you. Love mommy.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

My Kiddos

Kiddos Update
Wow my little man is growing up way to fast! I cant believe how he is changing everyday. Arland you have turned into my little buddy you love to help me take care of your brother and do little things for mamma. You LOVE to throw your brothers diaper away and bring me blankets and burp rags for him. You love your new big boy room and your big boy bed that your daddy built! You love to play in the back yard with Pazely (or should I say torture) and your swing set. You love to tell Paze to go down the "wee" (slide) and you laugh so hard at her every time. You LOVE going to nursery! Seriously that is an understatement! You cry when we have to take you back home and ask momma the whole week when you get to go to nursery again. You call me momma now, not mom, not mommy, you call me momma and I LOVE it! You love to sit infront of our window and wait for daddy to come home. You are talking so much right now, your vocabulary has grown immensely! You now put sentences together and you love to run around the house calling for your auntie Emm who lives with us right now. You love trains...more than any other boy I know. You made a choo choo track out of my ice cube trays. You will make anything into a choo choo ack. (not track, ack).
You are such a loving boy Arland you love to help momma and you are friends with everyone. You are rarely in a bad mood. Thanks so much for choosing me as your momma, I am so thankful everyday that I can call you mine!
Love, momma
You are my angel baby. I seriously think with everything you went through that you came out of it with the happiest disposition. You love this life that you were given and you let everyone around you feel the happiness that you have. You smile at every person you meet and it is almost as if you see the deepest part of their spirit. I had you in the tub the other day and you looked at the door and smiled. I was sitting on the floor watching your little face smile at the door. You looked away and looked back at the same spot on the door and smiled and laughed. I tried to look into your eyes to catch a glimpse of who you might be looking at. I asked if it was your grandpas, aunts, uncles, or our sweet friend Shelby. All I know is that you couldn't stop smiling at who ever it was.
You are now rolling over! This is a huge accomplishment! When your brother was born I was so worried about him making every milestone at the right age and with you being 3 months younger than what you really are I lose track of when you are "suppose" to do things. I now just enjoy what you do when you do it. I am in no rush to have you "beat statistics" you are going to do things when you want. And to my surprise, you are doing everything you are suppose to be doing (says your doctor and home nurse). I am so proud of you and the strength that your little spirit has, you defy ALL odds and love life. Thank you for being my little and making me smile every day.
Love, your momma

Arland and cousin Flynnster
We LOVE when flynnster comes to visit us!
My Porter Babe